Wednesday, November 23, 2005

Finding myself

I haven't blogged in quite a while. Life was too overwhelming even for blogging. Things may be turning around a little though. We've moved back to our old house which has much more space. The kids are happier because they aren't in each other's laps anymore. I'm happier because I have purged a lot of junk and clutter that I really didn't need.

I've been busy running kids all over town, to dance, football, cheerleading, play practice...everything was all for them. Then things changed.

In October, a friend of mine had a cast member drop out of the play she was directing. I happened to be standing there when it happened and she turned to me in desperation and said, "You wouldn't do it, would you?" Something came over me and I said yes. For the first time in 7 years, I was going back onstage. She assured me that although it wasn't a huge part, it was really cool and had a solo, too -- the evil queen in Snow White.

I was a little nervous going in, but quickly discovered that I hadn't forgotten how to be in a show or how to rehearse. What I had forgotten was the joy it brought me. I felt like I had a huge piece of myself that had been missing for years and it was suddenly returned to me.

I'm out of time now. More later.